Ahhh, that's better.

I'm feeling much better after adding the bar to the daily program.  I also switched up the flavors of the shakes, concentrating now on the chocolate.  It may take a while before I'm ever able to drink the vanilla ones again.  I've been walking a lot, getting signatures for my campaign, and I feel really really good and back on track!!

That's right, momma got her groove back

I go to Maine on July 26 for four days.  I'm thinking of going on the moderate fast so I can have lobster.  I know some of my fellow Optis have done this for the same reason - vacay! - and did well on it.  I'll keep you informed of my progress.  xo

KRanKy!

That's right, dear reader, I'm a cranky bitch this week.  I am sick. to. death. of. these. freaking. shakes.  I can barely stomach one, let alone five.  I have been barely able to finish one in a sitting and ended up eating much less than I was supposed to.  As an example, when I went to the doctor today I had only had one shake, and it was 5PM.  That's not a good thing for obvious reasons, but also because your body goes into starvation mode... yada yada yada, you've heard it all before, I'm sure.  Anyone who has ever had a weight problem is an amateur nutritionist and has far more knowledge than the average skinny bitch.

I confessed my feelings to the doctor tonight and I was not happy with her response.  She told me I could go on the moderate fast or switch to the all-food, 'Lean' program.  She said that neither were good ideas for me, however, since I had lost so much weight already and was doing so well and that I look so good that I was probably thinking that I was done and was just going to go back to my old patterns.
Bitch says WUT???

Excuse me?

So I says to her I says, trying to refrain from wagging my finger and my head,  'That is NOT the problem.  I'm well aware that I have more weight to lose, I am just at the point that I do not want to do something stupid like eat something - I can tell that I am at a breaking point.'  I told her that my friend has the Optifast bars, and maybe if I could have one bar, two soups, and only two disgusting shakes, that I could stay on the full fast.  She said that women often do poorly on the bars, that it slows down their weight loss and she wasn't sure that was the answer.  I told her I wanted to try it and silently told her to stop being a Cassandra.  So I'm trying it for one week, because correct me if I am wrong, but slowing down weight loss is preferable to stopping it with a burrito to the mouth.

I also bought some new shake flavors, so that may be helpful as well.

In other news.. 11 week update:
I lost 3.6 pounds this week for a total of 57.2 pounds lost!

53.6 pounds down!

You read that right, loves.  (Why did that word send me into thinking about bread loaves? What is the food equivalent of a dirty mind? )

Here's a little photo essay featuring my face - doesn't it look better?  I'm going to compare and contrast it here to a photo that my student, Rachel, had put up of me on Facebook - a photo that lasted as long as it took me to text her, 'Get that down!!!  Please!!'

February 26, 2012.  Dear Lord who the fuck is this???

July 4, 2012.  Aah, there's my nose.

I needed this today, since I was all alone at my parents' home walking their dog, and I swear that house has the worst food karma - there is so much junk food around and my body and mind are conditioned to eat the second I walk into their home.  So, I've been struggling with the desire to cheat all day long.  I'm better now,  after seeing this.   Protect the fast!