I started out with the aforementioned coffee and vanilla shake mix... dear God that was disgusting. Then moved on to the ready made chocolate... barely kept that down. Then to the vanilla mix on it's own with water... I am now both nauseous and feel like viscous fluid is clogging my esophagus. I don't like to feel my esophagus. I'd rather be blissfully unaware of it.
Then, to my surprise, I blended strawberry mix with water and ice.. and we have a winner! Who would have thought that strawberry, the red-headed step child of flavors, would be the one for me? I find it so much more subtle a taste, almost just like flavored water. And I love to chew crushed ice (I read once that it's due to anemia, which I have), so it was as perfect as it can get for me. I had another strawberry special later on, and that makes five shakes. Dear Reader, I could not down another shake. Please don't tell anyone and please gods of weight loss, please allow me not to suffer for it. I did do my damnedest to take in the requisite 64 ounces of water with a small bit of diet coke in the mix. I'm a world class water drinker, so it was not hard for me.
I could not face cooking for my family, but I had my angelic fiancé here to cook and feed my two daughters, who are 10 and 14. Also, they helped him clean up because I was afraid that I would end up licking the plates. I really was hungry and tried to keep myself busy, but not busy enough. I went on a few errands, but my physical limitations are still keeping me from doing what I would like to do, so I don't feel like I have a lot of options. I nearly skipped out on dinner and went to the movies, but I muddled through. The smell of homemade mashed potatoes was like a siren call, but one that I resisted. Yay for me!
I do feel a little bit discouraged that it was such a hard day, but everyone tells me the hunger mostly goes away after three days, and that it does get easier. My best Optifast friend, Joe, and I texted a lot today. I really thank God for his support and constant encouragement and funny texts that helped me get through this day. I am really relying on people like I don't usually like to do and it is very humbling and I feel guilty and yet I could not do it without them. I also feel an obligation to not let them down.
I said in the beginning of this blog that I would probably uncover things about myself, and I think that I have just found out one reason why I overeat - not asking for help when I need it is not healthy for me. I have no choice now so there you have it. Cured by necessity.
I have survived day ONE. And I'm proud of myself.
Yay for you for getting through day one. Trust me girl, it is hard to get through the first few days, but you can do it!! My period of time to get into ketosis took longer than most other people, but I stuck it out and then it was blissfully wonderful. As a suggestion, you may want to consider adding allowable flavor into your shakes. At the clinic where I go, we're told we can add things that have up to 5 calories per serving in them, so I add things like Torani sugar-free syrup, sparkling water, extracts, etc. I made the supreme mistake of having a shake once without flavoring ... the first and last time I would make that mistake. I have never gotten bored of my flavors and actually look forward to having the shakes. By the way, if you need extra support, feel free to text me as well. My number is in my FB profile. There's a time diff, but I am walking the Optifast walk too so I get it!!
ReplyDeleteI'm looking for those sugar free syrups, may have to order them online. And I'm actually eager to work out. In the past, I have enjoyed working out tremendously. And I have a tough trainer that I can use, not sure tho how hard I'm allowed to work... I have to figure this out with the exercise evaluator and also have to see the cardiologist this week, since I 'failed' the stress test. :) Thank you for offering the text option. I truly appreciate your help and support!
ReplyDeleteYay for you getting through Day 1! That's the toughest and it's over. I'm with Kathy -- don't drink those shakes straight. Gotta add some flavoring. With my Opti 70s, I have to add a packet of Splenda with fiber. Are you allowed that? You also have my "recipe" for the pancake shake and banana bread shake. I don't like the chocolate and I never tried the strawberry. Maybe I should! So proud of you.
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